A favorite poem

Alas it is late, and I am headed to bed but not before I post a final poem in honor of a very good friend's birthday (Happy Birthday Alex).

The useless dawn finds me in a deserted street-

corner; I have outlived the night.

Nights are proud waves; darkblue topheavy waves

laden with all the hues of deep spoil, laden with

things unlikely and desirable.

Nights have a habit of mysterious gifts and refusals,

of things half given away, half withheld,

of joys with a dark hemisphere. Nights act

that way, I tell you.

The surge, that night, left me the customary shreds

and odd ends: some hated friends to chat

with, music for dreams, and the smoking of

bitter ashes. The things my hungry heart

has no use for.

The big wave brought you.

Words, any words, your laughter; and you so lazily

and incessantly beautiful. We talked and you

have forgotten the words.

The shattering dawn finds me in a deserted street

of my city.

Your profile turned away, the sounds that go to

make your name, the lilt of your laughter:

these are the illustrious toys you have left me.

I turn them over in the dawn, I lose them, I find

them; I tell them to the few stray dogs and

to the few stray stars of the dawn.

Your dark rich life ...

I must get at you, somehow; I put away those

illustrious toys you have left me, I want your

hidden look, your real smile -- that lonely,

mocking smile your cool mirror knows.